A little piece of heaven.

I woke up today to my sister calling my cellphone, when I picked up she sounded really happy I haven't talked to her since she left. All she called to ask me was to open the front door, as I unlocked the door I just went upstairs I didn't even want to see her.

It just feels like when my brother left all over again, no goodbye--nothing.
And now she's leaving too.

She didn't even really seem to care about not seeing me, she just grabbed her stuff and left.
The house just seems so much emptier lately, especially now that my dad's away on business it's just me and my mom around.

I feel like what's left of our family is breaking up.

When I logged into Myspace to see how Kira was doing, I've missed him I haven't spoken to him in the longest time I was trying to selfishly turn to him for comfort, when I read his status comment talking about how his mother passed away yesterday. I feel like such a bad friend because I haven't been there while he's been dealing with all this.

I remember how sad he was when he told me she was sick with cancer and how her personality completely changed--she was being so nice to him. I was really happy for him, he told me she better live or he'll be pissed. I tried to call him several times today, but his phone's off. I'm sure he's too upset to speak.

I feel pretty helpless lately in regards to being able to help my friend's deal with their crisis'. Unfortunately, the other day Ami's friend, Dirk, was shot and killed. I know she's been sad about that lately too. I've been trying to take her mind off things and talk with her as often as I can on Skype. Somehow, at least on the outside she keeps her composure and has remained calm and her happy normal self. I wonder if she's that way on the inside too?

In any way I can I want to help the both of them.

I'm stressing about this essay due Tuesday, I don't even know where to begin. And right now I really don't feel like even working on it.

Last night me and Makoto were supposed to go see [geist] play live with Polysics I was looking forward to seeing the show since it had been some time since I last saw Kane and the boys play live. Unfortunately, after Makoto got stuck in traffic in DC, Ryo ending up being able to come last minute, and everyone finally getting together the ticket office for the show was going to be closed so we decided after all the trouble of getting together we should just do something else, so we ended up going to see the Wolfman.



It was the last showing and the theater was basically empty so me, Ryo, Lady and Makoto had the place practically all to ourselves. Afterwards, none of us wanted to leave and go home so we ended up talking in the empty parking lot outside of the theater for hours.

We sat in Makoto's car for hours the four of us talking..it was really nice to catch up with Ryo too it had been way too long since I had last seen her.