A little piece of heaven.

Trying to fall back asleep I've been on this strange sleep schedule lately. Yesterday, I met a really impressive guitarist we started speaking after I saw his Youtube page his covers were so beautiful and he's so young! I'm envious..I hope when I pick up guitar more I can someday be as talented. It's nice to meet more people who have similar bands they enjoy, we talked a lot about doing Versailles' covers especially I'm excited! And ironically enough he's also friends with another good guitarist friend of mine they live close to each other! Small world..I was really happy and flattered when he asked me to sing some songs so he could hear my voice, he told me, "I have a great voice" coming from another and talented musician I really appreciated it and was motivated even more.

And ah Ollie is coming home today I'm so excited! Now we can continue our covers and composing more music.



I found this video yesterday I had no idea they played at Neo Visual Rock! Watching this footage really makes me appreciate how much power Versailles has, they seemed to have improved so much more then before..but even still something is still sad and lacking from the stage and performance. I know Yuu would be proud of them though.

I finished tonight's radio broadcast of our Jasmine You tribute. I can't believe it's already been a year..the time passes by so quickly. I remember last year speaking on his behalf on the Tainted Reality radio show to talk a little of my experiences with Jasmine. This year, I wanted to do the same and play music which he loved to listen too or he was apart of. As I spoke of Yuu and read passages about him I fought to held back the tears.

"Don't endure your pain alone." Izumi, a friend of mine told me last year after Yuu's passing. Thank you. I'll try to keep that in mind, when I am lonely and remember Jasmine with a smile.

Thank you so much to everyone who has supported the radio show thus far, as well as who attended my tribute to Jasmine, he was someone dear to me and I appreciate his fans and listeners of my show who gave me to the opportunity to speak on his behalf. Something that was so beautiful to me was when I asked everyone if they knew the words to please sing along to Yuu-related project's songs when I played them on the radio so many people sang along I was even inspired to do so - I know Jasmine heard us in heaven.

It was like "Jasmine Magic" the entire show I thought, like he was with us making sure everything went okay all technical issues seemed to resolve themselves and what we were left with was this air of peacefulness and tears - both happy and sad.

I recorded the broadcast as well for those listeners who didn't get a chance to view, for now we're on hiatus to organize as we might be possibly moving and collaborating with another radio show. Please stay tuned.

It's strange to think a year has already passed, today is the reunion with your memory. We remember you so fondly and speak so proudly of yuu that it's hard to think your really gone. I think if after a year this many people still speak of yuu and remember his beauty then he won't ever die. His memory will continue to be passed down and inherited. You were always so kind and gentle to myself as long as your colleagues, staff, the fans, anyone you encountered - so for that more then anything I want to say, thank you.

I've been working hard on your portrait as well as a CD currently entitled, "Memory of Yuu" with original pieces, as well as covers of songs Jasmine worked on.

Even though many days have passed, my heart still aches on your anniversary. Today I will sing for you and play more beautifully then ever, I think that's all I can do. But, I can't help but feel like maybe it's not enough..I strive so hard to preserve your memory.

Please grant me wings and lend me your strength from now. When I cosplay from your project, "Versailles", when I sing your songs or even when I look up at the blue sky I'll think of Yuu.

Thank you, you can sleep now.

I've been talking all night with my friend Regina I've known her for a little while now really since around April, but the last few days we really seemed to "click" faster through sharing stories and her helping me through my difficult time, we've been talking all night about music she's gotten me into a lot of different visual kei bands I've never heard of..it's amazing her knowledge *_*!

It's nice to distract myself from my current grief..if only for a little while. I'm glad to have friends like her around.

The reunion with his memory is in 2 days..the days seem to be passing by so fast.

Maybe it was a meeting by fate, who's to say? I just got off the phone with my newest friend KASAN, really cool person. We connected instantly on the topic of music our dreams are so similar it's hard to imagine it was anything but fate, we met through a mutual friend. I think Kasan has a bright future of being a rocker, they certainly have the voice and look to pull it off. We stayed up all night talking and getting to know one another, I think there's potential for us do music together, we talked about working together.



I think this is a good push for me!

We talked about visiting Japan together and going to see our favorite band the GazettE live. Another dream of mine would be complete..
Kasan has seem them several times listening to them talking about the band live just made me more and more interested in seeming them perform in person.

Two words: I caved. I just finished ordering both games I couldn't decide which one and I was going to hold off on buying them until I had a little more money to splurge on video games, but I stumbled upon this deal Gamestop is having that lasts 3 days that gave me 20% off any new Xbox 360 game *__* I couldn't believe it.

So of course I figured since I was going to buy them both sooner or later best to get them now when they'll be cheap. From the videos and everything I've seen of the games they look amazing, I've been following both since their early production stages.

Besides I need to complete my Final Fantasy collection I have EVERY FF game in the numbered series 1-12 and some side ones even like Crisis Core, FF: Tactics. :) That's a good enough reason to spend the money on 13 right?

Now, to wait patiently for 5-10 days, wish me luck! (>_<)

I just got off the phone with Flip, we were talking for at least an hour. She's such a talented business woman, I admire women like that. I think she should have more confidence in herself though! She has such a great business sense and charming personality, I think any company would be lucky to have her, hopefully she too can make her realize this. (>_<) I want to continue to support her goals she really is a kind girl who deserves many good things! ^^ She messaged me tonight because she was nervous about not making it to the interview for her possible new job and wanted my support, I'll gladly continue to give it to her without wavering. "Good luck with your new job." She also asked me to work with her on her promotional and management company, FlippinPR that deals with public relation affairs with specifically, Japanese artists. I'm honored! I think it will be good to help expose more of my work and possible talents to different companies and people, something else I can add to my resume. I'm always grateful for opportunities to express myself.